Sunday, November 29, 2009

Weekend fun and Sunday's Suck!

Three blogs in one night! Wow I must be bored. No I am lonely now that Chris and his mom have headed back to Abilene and since I didn't get a chance to blog while they where here I figured I would break up the blogs into smaller ones. That way they didn't get all long and ramble!
Friday night since Sean was at his dad's house we decided to go out for more shopping. We headed to Addison and went to the new strip mall where Prestonwood Mall once stood. I needed new curlers for Ella so we went to Ulta and found the perfect ones we needed. Then off to Walmart. I needed stockings and a tree skirt. We walked around for a bit and grabbed the items I was looking for. We walked back to the I guess gardening department and ended up back where the real trees are. Now I am highly allergic to Christmas Tree's and Chris's mom gets a bad headache from the pine smell. So what better thing to do than walk in and check out the real trees. At first I was fine I love the smell of them and I really wish I could have a real tree. A few minutes later Chris notices my eyes start to swell and my voice is sounding scratchy. We walk out and I start wheezing! I was having a full on allergic reaction. Stupid me even touched the tree and proceeded to rub my eyes since they where itchy and watery! No I am not 2 years old and yes I do know better!! A temporary lapse in judgement I will just chalk it up to! After a few minutes I realize I don't have my inhaler and I am getting worse. We get the Walmart brand Benadryl and I quickly pop 2 of them. I get better with in a few minutes! We pay for our items and head to Michael's to get a few things to finish decorating!
We get our items at Michael's, go eat a Penara Bread and head home. The effects of the Benadryl are hitting me and I am getting sleepy! I apparently decorated the stockings with the kids names on them and even hung them up. I went to bed and sometime in there even got on Facebook and updated my status message. I had no idea til the next morning that I had done all this!
Saturday was the ice show nothing to exciting happened. I think honestly that was for the best! To much drama makes for an exhausting weekend.
Today was a busy day yet again. We got up, I got Sean ready for pictures with his dad and their family, and we had more shopping to do! After Sean left we got ready and headed over to Northpark. We picked out Sean's Christmas gift and then headed over to the mega Children's Place across the way in the new strip mall they are building. I found some cute clothes and shoes for them. Lunch at Chipotle and then off to David and Myranda's to pick up Sean. Hung out there for a bit, hogged her computer to look at all sorts of cute family pictures because I am so nosey like that, then headed off to Sam's to get my bulk items I need. Sean seemed terribly bored so we took him back to the house so he could hang out with Chris's mom and watch a movie. This gave Chris and I time to head to Target to get grocery shopping done and some alone time. We stocked up and 45 min later headed back home.
Sundays really suck for us because that means at 7:30pm he loads up to head back home. I know I can't really complain this is the life I choose but still its hard week after week to say good bye to the man you love so much. I tell myself that at least this way we won't ever get tired of each other since we hardly see each other ha ha! Ya that works really well (NOT!) I wish that we could change this but for now this is how it is and we are making it work it just needs more time for us to get used to it.
I tried to make leftovers for dinner and that was a disaster. I was having a real off night and just kinda messed up stuff. The kids barely ate and I really didn't either. I had Chris take the rest of the turkey home. Chris's mom kindly cleaned up the kitchen so that Chris and I could finish up our 4 loads of laundry. We both where getting a bit sad because we knew in just a bit we would be saying good bye and not good night like we had been the last few days. We got all the laundry up and it was time for them to hit the road. After a few minutes of a somewhat emotional good bye between him us the kids they left and they all just kinda came apart. I told them this is how its going to be and we all have to get used to it. Ella cried for about 45 minutes, Sean was slightly upset but trying to hide it and Hannah just sulked around. About 9 something everyone was finally out. I finally got my blogs going also.
So now it's 11pm. My allergies are kicking up again or at least I hope its that and not a cold. Ella is crashed out next to me and I am getting sort of sleepy myself. I am not looking forward to going back to work tomorrow. I guess if I look at the bright side it is pay day tomorrow and if things go well Chris might be back Wednesday night. So I have things to look forward too I just am in a mood right now. I will hate sleeping alone again in my bed tonight but that's just how it is. On that note I am going to end my marathon blogging and head off to bed. Night and sleep tight!

Galleria Tree Lighting Show!

With all the fun packed into the last few days I was a little ill prepared for what the first day of the ice show would bring. The night before I did my usual check of costumes, skates, hair stuff, makeup, ect. It was all in place and ready to go. After my early morning Black Friday fun I headed home to get myself ready first and then have Jason wake up the girls so they could come down to my house to get their hair done. After about 45 minutes of dealing with that. We all got ready and decided it was time to head off to the rink.
It was 9am still 3 hours till show time. Plenty of time you might think but not really. There was three of us this year to be dressed and ready to go no later than 11:15am. So that means that about 10:15am we need to start getting dressed. Yes it really does take an hour to get three of us dressed, make up on, hair done and skates tied. Its a marathon unlike any one you will ever train for! And when someone or something should throw a wrench into your plans it makes it all that much harder to deal with.
Minutes before we where all three due downstairs I remembered that Wednesday night we had Hannah's skates placed on the stretcher to give her just a little more room till we could get her new skates taken care of. I sent Hannah down to the rink to get her skates while I got Ella ready and her skates on. A few moments later my phone rang. I saw Jason down at the rink waving his hands wildly to get my attention. Something was wrong, really really wrong. He told me that Hannah's skate need to take top priority in getting paid for ect. Someone had messed with the machine that stretches her skates and had ruined them. He at the time thought they would be ok to skate in for the show today and tomorrow. I said ok I would look at them and get Hannah ready. Hannah had not noticed it since Jason didn't mention it to her. I took one look and said " Oh crap this is really bad!" I tried to put them on and she cried and screamed. They hurt bad. After a few moments Chris said he would take care of it and went down to talk to Jason. He told Jason due to the severity of this situation he wanted to help pay for Hannah's skates so she would be able to skate in good skates for the show. While that was a wonderful well beyond wonderful gesture the problem now lies with the skates need to be water proofed and need blades mounted. This process takes at least 24 hours! I went downstairs and told Holly and one of the coach's Patty along with Jason that no way these skates would work the pain was to great and she was really upset. We tried a hundred different things it only seemed to make things worse. Finally after heavy debate, and Hannah stating she would just sit out because it hurt to bad, we did the unthinkable! We quickly had Patrick mount the blades to brand new skates that have never been broken in and of course not water proofed. That is a huge no no in skating but for this the sacrifice was really worth it. 20 minutes later the new skates where on her feet felt better and the stiffness of the new skates was a non issues. Phew!
The first show was a huge success. The girls skated great from what I could see. I did well too. I have to admit it was nice doing a show again. I haven't skated in that show since I was a kid. Ella was slightly scared of Dan "Santa" this year. He has the fireworks on his skates and its a bit much if you are a little kid. Guess it was a good thing I was there to hold her so she didn't get upset.
My sister Dana and her twin boys Sam and Ethan where there along with their two friends and my sister Cameron. We had a huge yummy wonderful family lunch at Mi Cocina after the show. I can't thank my sister enough for that yummy treat! She is a great big sister and I love her. Now we just need to get Ethan out there on the ice to skate! He has been wanting to do it and I want to take him out and teach him.
The Saturday show seemed to go a bit smoother. No skate issues this time. Jason and i profusely thanked Chris for his generous help in getting the skates and Patrick for his help getting them skate ready for Hannah. The other treat that night was having my cousin Traci and her Daughter McKenzie come up and watch the show. She treated us to a lovely, yummy dinner at the Grand Lux. That was some yummy eating. The kids loved it because they had their own table and got to place their own order. They where very well behaved I must say. Thank you Traci for a yummy dinner. It was super sweet and wonderful of you!
Check out the pictures of us on Facebook. They turned out really great. I think we all look pretty darn cute. Who knows maybe I will end up skating in a few more of the Tree Lighting Shows!

Yes I shop Black Friday, The early morning story!

I did something that I have never done in all of my adulthood.... I went shopping on Black Friday at 4am! Now some of you who saw my post on Facebook know that I along with Chris and his mom got up at 4am and proceeded to do some shopping. The funny part is I wasn't out looking for the best deals on gifts for family and friends I was actually looking for the best deal on a strapless bra and a new Christmas tree! Chris's mom was looking for a new spice rack, cooking utensils and towels. I know aren't we a sad bunch ha ha?! Chris decided to inform me late Thursday night that the dress I would be skating in for the ice show was not bra appropriate and that I would probably have to wear something else underneath it! Guess its a good thing I have him around. I decided to search Kohl's website to see what they had and while we where at it found a spice rack with a nice rebate and other items that Chris's mom needed. So hence our 4am Black Friday trip!
4am that alarm goes off and to my surprise we all get up get dressed and in good spirits head off to do some shopping. An even bigger surprise was getting to Kohls to see that the parking lot was not that full so we felt a bit better about going in for shopping. I was like the only women in the intimacy dept. looking for a bra ha ha. But hey I found it and it worked so who cares! Chris's mom got the items she was looking for so score one for us! The down side was the really long line to check out. We where some goofy slap happy people. Chris decided to try and throw his voice around like Jeff Dunham. I think the people around us did not find his ventriloquist like behavior funny at 4:30am or they didn't like the fact that we where not serious die hard Black Friday Shoppers. Who cares we got our stuff and we finally made our way out of there close to 5am.
Our next stop was Target. Funny story about that. So we pull in the back way to the Super Target and I was like "Holey cow no one is here yet!" "There is no way on Black Friday this store is not open something must be going on!" Sure enough we pull to the front of the store the whole left side of the parking lot is full of cars and there is a line from the front of the store down to Abrams! They apparently opened their doors at 5am so we got there just in time. Again not shopping for the big sale items that most of these crazy people standing in line where aiming for. Apparently there was a 31.5" flat screen going for dirt cheap and some crazy lady felt the need to buy 4 of them! Heck I was just there to get a new Christmas tree since the one I got last year broke. Again no one was over in that section so I didn't have to fight off people wanting to steal the tree I wanted!! Who cares we got our tree and that's all that matters!
We left there decided we where hungry for breakfast. It was now 5:30am and I joked hey lets get Cracker Barrel! I had to be home around 7 to get the girls hair curled for the show so we didn't figure we would have enough time to do it. Called Cracker Barrel turns out today they opened at 5am. We hopped on the highway and made it there by 6am! We grabbed a quick breakfast and made it home with time to spare!
I had a great time even though it was 4am! I was glad that Chris and his mom where up for the adventure at that hour. Maybe I will do more Black Friday shopping in the future!!

Gobble Till ya Wobble!!

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! I hope everyone had a wonderful and special Thanksgiving. (ok so I am a few days late please forgive me!) This year our Thanksgiving was a bit more special. I had Chris here and it was so nice to be able to share this holiday with him now that he is home. I also got to share it with his mother who also came down to celebrate with us. She was really great to have around and the kids seemed to really like her. I really do appreciate all she did for us while she was here.
So well I guess I should go back to Wednesday and start from there on how our fun Thanksgiving got kicked off. The girls, Sean and I got up early Wednesday to head to the rink for Hannah's lesson, to skate, shop and hang out. In my mad dash to get us all out the door I did something that might shock everyone.......... I left withOUT my CELL PHONE!! Yep I also managed to live with out for 8 hours! I honestly was fine the one thing that bothered me was that I didn't have a way to tell time. I also tried to borrow a friends phone to let Chris know where I was so he wouldn't worry but I forgot his number. We got home about 4ish and to my wonderful surprise Chris and his mom where at the house! The had just arrived a few moments before. After a while we decided we needed to head out to run a few quick errands. We made a stop at Micheal's where his mom picked out a couple of little Christmas trees for the kids to decorate with these really cute tiny ornaments. The kids had so much fun with it. While they did that we order pizza kicked back and just watched the kids have fun. One tree now sits on the kitchen table and the other in the bedroom with the princess tree.
Since the girls where spending Thanksgiving with Jason I took them down to his house around 9:30pm. Lets just say they where wired!!! I felt bad leaving them with Joe while Jason was at work but for the sake of our sanity at the house I had to do it! Apparently at 11pm when Jason got home they where still up! Sean actually went to bed rather quick after they left. I think the long day wore him out!
Thanksgiving day was great. Got up cleaned the house and got it ready for my sisters and their men to come by and hang out. We decided to do snack foods during the day and save our feast for the evening since my sisters had plans to eat meals else where. It was great to have my three sisters over and we also enjoyed the company of Ronnie and Nate. They stayed for a few hours before heading off to other houses for the day. We had a wonderful dinner that Chris's mom ended up doing most of the work on. She really went above and beyond on it. I had every intention of making the food but she did it and I think we where all better off for it ha ha!
I am so thankful for what I have. This family I have and my friends are simply amazing people. I thank God every day for them. I honestly do not know what I would do without them.

Monday, November 23, 2009

Hurry up and wait!

This is a new line I am quickly becoming familiar with. I am really starting to get a idea of what I am really in for now, now that Chris is home. Last Monday Chris left to head off to Florida to get all of his stuff. While they hurried here I sat and waited and waited lol! Friday has never dragged on so much before. I was lucky and got to leave an hour and a half early from work. I was greeted by Chris and his mom out in his nice new truck! Ella was in awe of the view from how high up she was that she hardly spoke the whole way home!
I quickly packed up my stuff to get out on the road with my new family. The drive was fairly uneventful until right at the end. We made it all the way out to Abilene and as we exited the highway we quickly realized that our exit was a two way street. Playing chicken at 10pm is not recommended on poorly lit side roads!! I think Mary and I where wide awake after that! We where afraid of what Chris would say but he got out of his U-haul laughing making comments about it we all joked for a bit grabbed some dinner and headed to bed! We where beat!
Saturday we got on base after a yummy breakfast at Cracker Barrel. Of course I had to grab more ornaments for our Christmas tree! We got checked into the hotel on base and decided to head over to the BX and get a few items we need and head off to the mall of Abilene. For a mall it wasn't to bad. I found a Hallmark store and bought 3 more ornaments for the tree. These where special ones one was a photo family one that I want to get a picture of all of us to put in there, a special one for Chris and I, and a personalized one that I put all 6 of us on. You might be scratching your head going 6, there are only 5 of you?! Well no I am not expecting, but Chris does have a son. His son is 4 and his name is Connor. I decided since we are a family now that it makes sense to add him. Chris seemed a bit shocked but its true. I want him to feel included in our family. I love sentimental value that those kind of ornaments add. Christmas is that kind of time for me. All the ornaments I have have some sort of special meaning to myself or my children. I hope they carry that over to when they get older and have their own trees.
After a short rest, and a quick shower at the hotel I decided to treat Chris and his mom to dinner at Olive Garden. It was very yummy!! Head back to the hotel for a crummy night sleep and to wake up with a cold in the middle of the night. That was the worst night sleep I have had in a long time. I woke up in a foul mood. It might have had to do with being sick or knowing that it was Sunday and I had to head back home and start the week with our Chris. After a outing with his mom, I decided to stay behind, Chris and I started our drive back to Dallas. I was still in a mood and really didn't feel like talking. I guess this whole only seeing each other on the weekends thing is going to take some getting used to. I also think I wasn't thrilled about having to skate in the dress rehearsal. It adds stress to me and I feel a bit more overwhelmed. Hopefully I won't have to actually skate in the shows. Chris took me to practice and stuck around for a bit. Then he had to make his drive back to Abilene.
I am excited that Chris and his mother will be here for Thanksgiving and the rest of the week. I am experiencing so many firsts for me this year and some have been good and well some not so much. I think this first Thanksgiving with my new family will be exciting. I am hoping my sisters will stop by and spend some time with us. I have decided that I want to have a I guess last minute open house. Those who don't have a place to go, or those that just want to stop by and see us I am opening my house up to. The holidays are about giving, sharing and family. I feel like doing just that. The rest of this week is super busy to get ready for Thanksgiving. I hope that it goes well.
The girls skate in the Annual Tree Lighting Ceremony at the Dallas Galleria Mall Friday and Saturday. Friday the show starts at noon and Saturday it starts at 5pm. If you are going get there early and let me know so I can save you a spot by us up on the 1st floor by Macy's. The girls look cute and I will be taking tons of pictures. I hope that everyone gets a chance to stop by and see one of the shows before Christmas.
Well this is it for the night. The girls stayed up late because we painted pottery and watched a movie. Now its time for them to go to bed and me to call it a night so I can get through my last day of work for the week!

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

A world of craziness!!

WOW its been about 10 days since I last wrote. I had every intention of writing but with all that's been going on I really had no time to stop and write. I planned on writing the Thursday before Chris came home but someone had other plans. As most of you know Chris came home a day early and wow everyone seemed to know it but me! I posted a note about it on FB so you will have to check it out if you haven't already. I can honestly say he never seems to stop amazing me and is always full of surprises. I love it and I hope it never stops!

Some of the highlights of his homecoming beyond him coming home a day early where........ having and extra set of hands to help out around the house, a lunch date during the week, shopping for his new wardrobe ( there are some pictures on FB!), seeing my aunt Karen and Uncle Doug, getting to see the rehearsals for the ice show, our trip to Abilene to poke around the base and check out the houses ( my favorite part!), my friends 30th birthday dinner along with a evening at the W hotel. These where just a few of the highlights but honestly just having him home and spending time with us was the greatest part of all. I will admit though it tossed my usual routine through a loop but we quickly readjusted. As always the trip went by way to fast. It was Monday morning before we knew it. That right there was bitter sweet. Yes he left to go to Florida but that means he will be heading back to move and will be here for Thanksgiving and on the weekends now! There is my silver lining.

Monday was for sure a readjustment for all of us. We came home from work and I felt that stress of all that I had to do building up. I got through it though we did home work, ordered pizza and got settled in to bed ( my bed!) I have struck a horrible deal with my kids which I know I will pay for somehow some way but I am picking and choosing my battles now. If it gets them to go to bed then fine let them lay in my bed while I am out in the living room cleaning, using the computer what ever. I just move them to their beds when I am ready for bed. For now it works so I am going with it. Today was much better and on the upside Chris got a new truck. He is busy packing up the U-Haul with his family so his mom and him can leave bright and early Wednesday morning to make the trip to Texas. The plan is to get here Friday pick me up head to Abilene to spend the weekend. I am excited because I will be spending my weekend on base. That is a whole new experience right there. I enjoyed my trip there last weekend so I am sure this will be much more fun and exciting.

Well it's time to wrap this up. Chris is on the phone and laundry needs to be put away. Hopefully I will get back in the habit of writing. I have truly missed it actually. Have a great week everyone!

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

72 hours and counting.....

This will more than likely be short and sweet but in 72 hours Chris comes home. I feel weird obsessing about it but then again the whole deal is so exciting. Right now he is on a bus for a long trip to Seoul where he will stay till he leaves at 6am Friday morning. I just found out that there have been changes with his flight so he has to be at the airport at 6am since they are moving people around. So there is a chance he won't be in at 3:30pm like planned but either earlier or later. I am a planner I need to know these things. Another box arrived yesterday so we are at 4 boxes with only 4 more to go. The house is coming along quiet nicely. I just have a few minor things left. I can complete most of that tomorrow and if not I can do it Thursday once we get home from the rink.
Today was the first day I woke up with a bad case of nerves. I was starting to feel it last night and didn't want to eat dinner. I crashed out quickly and woke up with this crazy feeling in my stomach. Was I coming down with something? Did I sleep weird? Ohhhhh no its nerves!!! I barely ate today either. I would try and feel ick. I tried to snack it worked out ok for me. I was so busy with Hannah's project I didn't feel like eating again tonight. Chris gave me a lecture on eating before he left tonight. But part way through our conversation his stomach started doing flip flops so hummmm right? Tomorrow being Wednesday I am at the half way point of the week and I think my nerves will get a bit worse and the anxiety will increase! While we are at the rink Thursday he be heading to the airport. I doubt sleep will happen at all that night.
So many thoughts and emotions right now its insane. I am ADD as it is so this is only adding to my problem ha ha! I am working on a project with Hannah for school so this is something else to occupy the mind also. I only burned 7 of my 10 fingers tonight with the glue so at least I didn't get them all!! While I want to curse her teacher for a project the week my fiance comes home and I have a million and one things to do I also sort of welcome a new challenge to get my mind off of things. Her teacher and I played a bit of phone tag today. We both wanted to talk and discuss her progress with her tutor. I see improvement. Lets hope she agrees. Well time to end my shortest blog yet. I feel the eyes getting sleepy. I have laundry covering the bed so I am out on the couch. This lazy tactic also is doubling in the fact that after this week I will be in my own room. So far Ella has adjusted well. I was on the couch last night and she didn't notice. Lets hope it goes the same tonight. Well thanks for reading my crazy ramblings. I feel a bit better now. Night night!!

Sunday, November 1, 2009


Hope everyone had a great Halloween. Mine was great even though I didn't spend it with my kiddo's this year. I do know they all had a great time so I do not feel bad that I was not with them. I had my own fun and I think it was just what I needed. My sister Robyn and I went to Gloria's for dinner and some 'ritas and then rented I Love You Man. I think we where to busy talking and chasing a dog in a field to really pay attention to the movie. The dog we where chasing was Dakota and as always he gets off his leash and like to make a mad run around the field. I had gone down to talk to Jason about the girls Trick or Treating and Robyn came down so that well I didn't look like an idiot having been slightly ok more than slightly buzzed. After about 10 min or so we made our way back to my place and had lost track of the movie and Robyn decided to leave to meet up with a friend I called it a night. Tequila and I do not get along very well anymore apparently. I think adding Smirnoff to it didn't help my matters either!!

These past few days have been eventful to say the least. Friday at 4am while sleeping soundly in my warm and comfy bed my phone rang. I am used to these early morning calls with the 14 hour time difference and all so all groggy and tired I answered the phone. After my "Hey baby how are you?" came the words.... " Hey baby you might not remember this phone call and please don't be mad." Yeah those are words any person like to hear especially at this hour. I figured after his doctors apt. that day maybe they had discovered that something was seriously wrong and he would need to stay or something. I was not prepared to hear what had actually happened! Chris had lost his wallet in a taxi off base and it had his drivers lisc., credit and debit cards, and his govt. ID. I was wide awake sat up I said some choice words got upset and then worried. He might not be coming home as planned and if he did he wouldn't be coming to Texas but Florida first. I was really trying hard to mask my disappointment and anger. It's not like he meant to but I was frustrated because of plans that we had been making and the way I had changed my schedule around. I never voiced this because it was really selfish on my part and figured it really didn't need to be said aloud. I finally hung up crying and went back to sleep for about 45 minutes before my phone rang at 5am. This time it was his mom. I explained what happened and what I had suggested. Yes I had rational thinking and logic at 4am half awake. I was impressed. I hung up with her got comfortable and settled back in bed and then at 6am my phone rang yet again! Chris was calling from the bar before the Jersey Retirement party. He apologized said that his mom was getting a new lisc for him online. We worked out that his new ID and credit cards once they came to Fl. could just be sent overnight to Myranda and would more than likely be here before he arrived Friday afternoon. I tried to lay back down but 3o minutes later the alarm went off and my days begun. Well it began officially now I guess. I called Chris' mom we talked for a bit while I made lunches and got the girls ready.
Ella got to wear her Halloween costume and Hannah wore her Halloween shirt to school. We started praying the rain would stop so that Ella and I could go trick or treating with her class that morning. Fortunately the rain stopped the sun came out and it was a beautiful day! I have pictures posted on Facebook so if you are on there go check them out. She is super cute!!
Saturday was a blast for Sean and I. I participated in my very first Boy Scout outing. Sean had a Boy Scout fun day at Camp Wisdom and as leery as I was about it I went because I know how much this means to Sean. Wow was I in for a treat. These boys went non stop from 8am till 2:30pm. They all got along and had so much fun with all the activities. Some where team building type exercises but others where just fun let off steam activities. Sean got to shoot a bow and arrow for the first time and after 5 tries on his 6th one he hit the center of the hay stack! He was so excited he wanted to keep going but we had to leave. He also shot a BB gun for the first time and although he did not hit the target he did hit the paper a few times and again loved it. He can't wait to go shot another gun. All I could think of the whole times was the line from The Christmas Story where the mom says "You'll shoot your eye out!" He was safe and really paid attention. So I really had nothing to worry about. They also had a pumpkin launch and he rocked at that. I again have pictures on Facebook. You will have to see him with these mini pumpkins. It was a hoot. He launched them further than most of the boys. He had his plan of attack all figured out by the time was ready to launch. I was pretty impressed. I can't wait to make another one of these outings. Who knows I might venture out for a camp out if I feel brave enough!
The count down now is at 4 and a half days. I woke up with a nervous stomach this morning. Well I think it was that maybe it was the drinks I had the night before. It had really start to hit me that this was it my last weekend alone. This has been a crazy ride and to know that I am days, hours, minutes from him arrival just makes me get all emotional and nervous. The thing that has made it significant is 3 of his boxes from Korea arrived yesterday and Myranda just brought them over to me. I am looking at them over by the wall in the living room and thinking " Wow this is it!" My life is really about to change. I will have a new life starting in about 100 hours. Ya 100 hours. That's really not a lot of time if you think about how many hours are in a day. Monday and Tuesday I should function probably just fine and Wednesday being the last day I will be able to talk to him prior to his leaving I know I will be a total mess. That being Thursday there he will be going to stay downtown at a hotel close to the airport so that the following morning he can board his plane and leave that craziness behind. Is it weird to be sad that its over. I mean I should prefer having him here right? But even though he was far away the times we had on the phone and computer where fun. Talking with Adi and hearing all his stories just made me feel like I was there. I know that seems crazy but I will miss this time because it was a major part of our relationship and made us who we are right now. I am sitting here crying because I keep thinking that this is really it.
When I wake up Friday morning I will head to work alone and come home with the man of my dreams that night. My weekends will be with my two favorite men and I will be so happy. For the two weeks he is here I want to do nothing but make the most of it. I want to do everything he wants to do go to places he wants to go to, see family and friends he wants to see and that want to see him! I won't be so sad this holiday season. I love my kids and they make me feel so happy and complete but having Chris really just solidifies it and makes me feel like I am a good person and I am worthy of being loved and appreciated. I know my children want to see me happy and I am now. I am very happy. I am scared and excited too. I will of course keep this blog going because I want to make sure that I still can communicate everything in our lives even though Chris is home. I have enjoyed this blog and I know the family and friends who are not near by like reading this.
Well the house work is calling my name now. I still have cleaning and laundry to get done. I am sure as the time gets closer you will see one more blog before the arrival of Chris. So "Yikes!!" this is almost over I am so happy. And maybe now I can fall back on a more normal sleep schedule too!!