So here we go as promised some belly pictures that Chris and I took of my now every growing belly. I am also trying to load them up on FB but aparently FB does not want me to show the world my lovely baby bump!!
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Some catching up to do!
So wow it's been since Feb. since I last updated so I would say that I am long over due here!
Chris and I got married and with that found out we are expecting our first (and only!) son together at the end of September. We are beyond thrilled though it has been a rocky road. We found out we where having a boy during my week stay in the Antepartum unit over Mother's Day. We are naming him Hunter Tyler.
Otherwise life has been well life. Busy, crazy and hectic. Chris had knee surgery and is still recovering and Hannah fell and fractures her wrist and hopefully in about 10 more days we will be done with this cast! We are wrapping up the school year and Sean is ready to start 5th grade though he says he will miss 4th grade as it has been the most exciting year for him yet. Wow my baby who is turning 1o in a few weeks will be in his last year of elementary school! Hannah has had a busy year in 2nd grade and we have had to go through a lot but she has pushed through stronger than we have ever seen and are so proud of her no matter what the outcome is at the end of the year. Ella is excited that she only has a few more months of Pre-K and talks non stop about going to her big brother and sisters school in the fall to start Kindergarten. Wow my babies are just growing up and next year will be the one and only year all three of them are in the same school together at the same time. I feel I have a busy year ahead of me! Hunter will make his appearance around the 27th of September since we are going to be induced. So yes that means a whole summer of heat!
Speaking of Hunter.... We found out about a month after our marriage I was pregnant with him. We are both excited to say the least. Though we have also been on eggshells too. This by far has been more difficult than any other pregnancy I have had. I spent a week in the hospital with a raging infection and a asthma attack that would not stop. During that time we where told that our son has two bilateral cysts on his brain and for now it is a wait and see game if this has effected any of his genetics. So far they have ruled out one genetic disorder and we are hoping that no news is good news for the others. We go back June 14th for another ultrasound and blood work.
The kids are rather excited about the arrival of a new baby brother. In fact they talk about it all the time and I think it's exciting. They all have commented on how much they love having a big family and someone to always play with. Ella by far is the most into this and has a sudden infatuation with my every growing belly. Hannah and Sean however just stick to the basics of asking questions and don't really seem into the whole belly thing.
So this is as good as an update you folks will get for now. I plan on having some belly bump pictures this weekend so that you can in fact see what I mean by my ever growing belly! Steroids are also a huge help in why I am so big for 22 weeks. But he is active and doing fine for now so I can't complain. I am enjoying this pregnancy so much and have had fun showing of the bump and look forward to him growing bigger and bigger!!
Chris and I got married and with that found out we are expecting our first (and only!) son together at the end of September. We are beyond thrilled though it has been a rocky road. We found out we where having a boy during my week stay in the Antepartum unit over Mother's Day. We are naming him Hunter Tyler.
Otherwise life has been well life. Busy, crazy and hectic. Chris had knee surgery and is still recovering and Hannah fell and fractures her wrist and hopefully in about 10 more days we will be done with this cast! We are wrapping up the school year and Sean is ready to start 5th grade though he says he will miss 4th grade as it has been the most exciting year for him yet. Wow my baby who is turning 1o in a few weeks will be in his last year of elementary school! Hannah has had a busy year in 2nd grade and we have had to go through a lot but she has pushed through stronger than we have ever seen and are so proud of her no matter what the outcome is at the end of the year. Ella is excited that she only has a few more months of Pre-K and talks non stop about going to her big brother and sisters school in the fall to start Kindergarten. Wow my babies are just growing up and next year will be the one and only year all three of them are in the same school together at the same time. I feel I have a busy year ahead of me! Hunter will make his appearance around the 27th of September since we are going to be induced. So yes that means a whole summer of heat!
Speaking of Hunter.... We found out about a month after our marriage I was pregnant with him. We are both excited to say the least. Though we have also been on eggshells too. This by far has been more difficult than any other pregnancy I have had. I spent a week in the hospital with a raging infection and a asthma attack that would not stop. During that time we where told that our son has two bilateral cysts on his brain and for now it is a wait and see game if this has effected any of his genetics. So far they have ruled out one genetic disorder and we are hoping that no news is good news for the others. We go back June 14th for another ultrasound and blood work.
The kids are rather excited about the arrival of a new baby brother. In fact they talk about it all the time and I think it's exciting. They all have commented on how much they love having a big family and someone to always play with. Ella by far is the most into this and has a sudden infatuation with my every growing belly. Hannah and Sean however just stick to the basics of asking questions and don't really seem into the whole belly thing.
So this is as good as an update you folks will get for now. I plan on having some belly bump pictures this weekend so that you can in fact see what I mean by my ever growing belly! Steroids are also a huge help in why I am so big for 22 weeks. But he is active and doing fine for now so I can't complain. I am enjoying this pregnancy so much and have had fun showing of the bump and look forward to him growing bigger and bigger!!
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Does it really matter?
Wow I have slowed down in my blogging. Life had been well life and I have just been so busy and tired to post. Then around Friday in my head I started putting together my next topic. It's not anything to do with my family or our daily happenings but more just thoughts of mine new and old coming together to form my really odd way of thinking and justification on things.
For many years I always had this ideal expectation of how my life was suppose to be. I saw how everyone in my family was and told myself this is how your life is suppose to turn out when you get older. Where my role models the best at getting me to that point of my life? No not really. Is it an excuse? No it's not. I always saw my family with nice things everything so nice an orderly. "perfect" marriages that lasted (my family was the exception, well in a way.) with there children in their well set little lives. There was no chaos just organization and order. The exception that I say was my family was because mom had never been married before and well my dad had been twice before my mom. but still if you looked at our family you never knew differently. I would always say that I would go to some great college get a degree in teaching or something, find the most amazing man, get married and then have a wonderful family with tons of kids and we would each have these wonderful jobs and have the life that I had growing up. I saw each of my young family members, i.e cousins and such, do the exact thing I had set out to do. As I saw each one of them attain their goal I knew that I would be there soon enough and I was excited.
About my Senior year of high school my life took a big turn. My parents no longer together, I no longer lived at home, my mom suffered from several problems and my siblings where really needing something positive in their life. I said with various family members till I graduated. I was living with my aunt Ann at the time and was so thankful for all she did for me that year. I walked across the stage and graduated just barely but I did. After that I lost my way I guess and my life never quiet turned out like I had once planned on. I guess I was the black sheep. I lost my desire to go to college because I guess I felt boys where more important well ok one in particular. I guess it was the fear of being alone so I stayed here with David. I found work I didn't make to much but I was just proud to be working. A year later David and I found out we where pregnant with Sean. There is for sure another thing I was not planning on that. I knew right then and there the way my family saw me was a total out cast. Shortly after Sean was born David and I realized we just where not meant to be together and we went our separate ways.
I found a place to live out in Addison and was doing well I thought. A few months later i met Jason. At this point I told myself that it was all me now and that I am pretty sure I was the hot gossip for the family. The eldest Goldstrich daughter who used to come off as responsible now a single unwed mom at 21. Yep I was definitely going places. Jason worked for the same company as me and we hit it off as friends right away. The plus was that he loved kids and was always found hanging around Sean's car seat entertaining him while I was working. When he was permanently moved here I offered him a place to stay till he got on his own two feet. I guess things between us grew because he never moved out and we became a couple. A few years later I found myself married to him. It was a disastrous wedding but by god I was married. Ok something was starting to go according to plan. Or was it? A few weeks later we found out we where pregnant with Hannah. I was excited. I figured hey I am married now so having a kid is a good thing. Or so I thought. By the time Hannah was born we where in no position to be having a baby. I was hardly working and Jason was having trouble at work. By the time we hit November after Hannah was born both Jason and I where out of jobs and needing to move. As last ditch effort we moved to Chicago. I hated it. Looking back I totally hated it. After a rocky marriage, a bunch of problems happening with Jason and work and the birth of Ella we moved back to Dallas and about that time I saw things coming to an end. A year later I was right Jason's troubles finally had over run everything and I wanted out.
I usually sat there and though none of this is how I wanted it. I am now separated I have 3 kids, with 2 different dads and again I find myself out of a job. I was reduced to sucking up pride and getting on govt. assistance. I had now hit an all time low emotionally. I felt like this huge failure and a total outcast to my family. Even now I look at all my family and still feel the way I do only for the fact that I never finished school, had one child not married, divorced with a marriage that I think we forced/rushed ourselves into. I just couldn't drag myself out of this low. I at least had a job now and had been doing something that I enjoyed. I might be working 10 hour days and coming home to do more work but I was taking care of me and my kids. I paid for everything I had, my own place, my electric, phone, Internet, the girls needs ect. What I didn't have and still don't is a car. A means of freedom and Independence for me and the kids.
I sit more focused on all my failures and what a screw up I must look like to all those around me. Yes I am engaged to a man I love more than anything but the downside he is 3 hours away. Being together as a family seems almost unattainable and makes me feel as though this is somehow destined for failure though we both swear that it wont. I feel so embarrassed for myself on all my stupid choices in my life that make me look so ridicules and family embarrassment. Every time I want to fix a mistake I somehow make it worse and make everything worse. I just want people to see me for me not my stupid life choices. I want them to see me as a good friend, a loving mom, a hard working person, and a person who tries to put others first. Yet I feel like I am seen as this secluded hermit who never spends time with friends, an over worked mom who doesn't get to really enjoy my full potential at being a mom, and that I am selfish because I want to be happy and sometimes sick of seeing everyone walk around with this life I want.
I guess just for once instead of being seen as some social outcast I want to be seen for me for my true potential, for all the good that I do or at least try to. I feel that I look and judge my life on how everyone around me turned out. If you look around you will see no one took the path I did no one was stupid enough to make those mistakes I have made. I broke the mold I chose the path I did so I guess what is the point of beating myself up over this since i did it to myself? I do it because I feel that I deserve to feel bad for the choices I made. Do I regret having any of my children? NO never. I just regret putting them through my bad choices. They didn't ask for it.
I look to this new marriage as a new start to my new life. A chance to make it up to me and my kids. But I feel even now I am not fully going to be able to do it. I always let my doubt take over. I some how let my past repeat itself. I don't want it to this time. I hope to eventually somehow manage to make my life out there with Chris. My goal is to have my girls go with me. Why not Sean? His life is here with his dad and step mom, his life with me is weekends and holidays. It's the way it is and how we do it and it works. I hope to have an agreement like this with Jason but I know deep down that it's going to be almost impossible to have him agree on it. But i pray that maybe somewhere down the line he will agree and know I would never take his daughters away from him forever but just a few hours away. I guess it's so much to think about and it becomes overwhelming.
I think I have reached a point where I have lost track of where I was going with this and has now let it become a point of just rambling. So I will wrap this up. Chris has gone home for the week, the girls will stay with Jason and enjoy the rest of his super bowl party, Sean is going to head to bed here soon. I think my home for the night will be the small not so lonely couch. It works. Night all.
For many years I always had this ideal expectation of how my life was suppose to be. I saw how everyone in my family was and told myself this is how your life is suppose to turn out when you get older. Where my role models the best at getting me to that point of my life? No not really. Is it an excuse? No it's not. I always saw my family with nice things everything so nice an orderly. "perfect" marriages that lasted (my family was the exception, well in a way.) with there children in their well set little lives. There was no chaos just organization and order. The exception that I say was my family was because mom had never been married before and well my dad had been twice before my mom. but still if you looked at our family you never knew differently. I would always say that I would go to some great college get a degree in teaching or something, find the most amazing man, get married and then have a wonderful family with tons of kids and we would each have these wonderful jobs and have the life that I had growing up. I saw each of my young family members, i.e cousins and such, do the exact thing I had set out to do. As I saw each one of them attain their goal I knew that I would be there soon enough and I was excited.
About my Senior year of high school my life took a big turn. My parents no longer together, I no longer lived at home, my mom suffered from several problems and my siblings where really needing something positive in their life. I said with various family members till I graduated. I was living with my aunt Ann at the time and was so thankful for all she did for me that year. I walked across the stage and graduated just barely but I did. After that I lost my way I guess and my life never quiet turned out like I had once planned on. I guess I was the black sheep. I lost my desire to go to college because I guess I felt boys where more important well ok one in particular. I guess it was the fear of being alone so I stayed here with David. I found work I didn't make to much but I was just proud to be working. A year later David and I found out we where pregnant with Sean. There is for sure another thing I was not planning on that. I knew right then and there the way my family saw me was a total out cast. Shortly after Sean was born David and I realized we just where not meant to be together and we went our separate ways.
I found a place to live out in Addison and was doing well I thought. A few months later i met Jason. At this point I told myself that it was all me now and that I am pretty sure I was the hot gossip for the family. The eldest Goldstrich daughter who used to come off as responsible now a single unwed mom at 21. Yep I was definitely going places. Jason worked for the same company as me and we hit it off as friends right away. The plus was that he loved kids and was always found hanging around Sean's car seat entertaining him while I was working. When he was permanently moved here I offered him a place to stay till he got on his own two feet. I guess things between us grew because he never moved out and we became a couple. A few years later I found myself married to him. It was a disastrous wedding but by god I was married. Ok something was starting to go according to plan. Or was it? A few weeks later we found out we where pregnant with Hannah. I was excited. I figured hey I am married now so having a kid is a good thing. Or so I thought. By the time Hannah was born we where in no position to be having a baby. I was hardly working and Jason was having trouble at work. By the time we hit November after Hannah was born both Jason and I where out of jobs and needing to move. As last ditch effort we moved to Chicago. I hated it. Looking back I totally hated it. After a rocky marriage, a bunch of problems happening with Jason and work and the birth of Ella we moved back to Dallas and about that time I saw things coming to an end. A year later I was right Jason's troubles finally had over run everything and I wanted out.
I usually sat there and though none of this is how I wanted it. I am now separated I have 3 kids, with 2 different dads and again I find myself out of a job. I was reduced to sucking up pride and getting on govt. assistance. I had now hit an all time low emotionally. I felt like this huge failure and a total outcast to my family. Even now I look at all my family and still feel the way I do only for the fact that I never finished school, had one child not married, divorced with a marriage that I think we forced/rushed ourselves into. I just couldn't drag myself out of this low. I at least had a job now and had been doing something that I enjoyed. I might be working 10 hour days and coming home to do more work but I was taking care of me and my kids. I paid for everything I had, my own place, my electric, phone, Internet, the girls needs ect. What I didn't have and still don't is a car. A means of freedom and Independence for me and the kids.
I sit more focused on all my failures and what a screw up I must look like to all those around me. Yes I am engaged to a man I love more than anything but the downside he is 3 hours away. Being together as a family seems almost unattainable and makes me feel as though this is somehow destined for failure though we both swear that it wont. I feel so embarrassed for myself on all my stupid choices in my life that make me look so ridicules and family embarrassment. Every time I want to fix a mistake I somehow make it worse and make everything worse. I just want people to see me for me not my stupid life choices. I want them to see me as a good friend, a loving mom, a hard working person, and a person who tries to put others first. Yet I feel like I am seen as this secluded hermit who never spends time with friends, an over worked mom who doesn't get to really enjoy my full potential at being a mom, and that I am selfish because I want to be happy and sometimes sick of seeing everyone walk around with this life I want.
I guess just for once instead of being seen as some social outcast I want to be seen for me for my true potential, for all the good that I do or at least try to. I feel that I look and judge my life on how everyone around me turned out. If you look around you will see no one took the path I did no one was stupid enough to make those mistakes I have made. I broke the mold I chose the path I did so I guess what is the point of beating myself up over this since i did it to myself? I do it because I feel that I deserve to feel bad for the choices I made. Do I regret having any of my children? NO never. I just regret putting them through my bad choices. They didn't ask for it.
I look to this new marriage as a new start to my new life. A chance to make it up to me and my kids. But I feel even now I am not fully going to be able to do it. I always let my doubt take over. I some how let my past repeat itself. I don't want it to this time. I hope to eventually somehow manage to make my life out there with Chris. My goal is to have my girls go with me. Why not Sean? His life is here with his dad and step mom, his life with me is weekends and holidays. It's the way it is and how we do it and it works. I hope to have an agreement like this with Jason but I know deep down that it's going to be almost impossible to have him agree on it. But i pray that maybe somewhere down the line he will agree and know I would never take his daughters away from him forever but just a few hours away. I guess it's so much to think about and it becomes overwhelming.
I think I have reached a point where I have lost track of where I was going with this and has now let it become a point of just rambling. So I will wrap this up. Chris has gone home for the week, the girls will stay with Jason and enjoy the rest of his super bowl party, Sean is going to head to bed here soon. I think my home for the night will be the small not so lonely couch. It works. Night all.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
A little of this a little of that!
So I am sitting in the car last night with my wonderful fiance and he turns to me and asks... "when are you going to update your blog it's been awhile?" I was like well maybe tonight I don't know I mean I really haven't felt well and I don't really have to much to report but I am sure I can find something to write about.
I guess in my last blog I mentioned we had set a date for the wedding ect. Well as most already know I had a slight freak out/breakdown and have just decided to do Justice of the Peace. I want to have a big party though for all my family and friends so we can celebrate. We have changed the date to Friday Feb. 26th on Saturday Chris and I will head to the Ft. Worth Stock Yards to take some newly wed pictures with my wonderful friend Heather with Chunky Monkey Photography. Chris is so excited he loves the Stock Yards and I know this will be a super fun place for us to do some cute pictures. So for those of you who had cleared your schedule for the 27th of Feb. sorry I don't mean to disappoint but honestly I can't handle putting a wedding together and I need something low key and simple.
I know my sisters are disappointed they had such wonderful ideas but I do hope to use them for our wedding celebration. Jenny sent me some awesome invites to use so I can't wait to use those. I also know Jordan and Jenny have a signature drink they want to use so I am sure they can't wait to put that all together either. As for registering I am really getting to it. I have had a few people ask already but I am going to register at my fave place.... Target!!
I have been sick off and on for about 10 days now and finally starting to feel like I am getting back to normal. I love having Chris here to take care of me on the weekends. Unfortunately he has weekend duty next weekend so it will be a quiet weekend with just Sean and I. I am sure he will love having mommy all to himself. Or maybe he will just love having the Wii and Xbox ha ha.
The kids are doing great at school and at home. They are always busy and up to something. Hannah and Ella have a skating competition in Plano the weekend of Valentines day. Once I get that schedule I will post it on here and FB so that those interested can come watch.
Well like I said not much to report for now. Sorry so short and boring. Maybe more soon. Hope everyone is doing well and has a fantastic week. Well I am super sleepy and off to bed. Night all!
I guess in my last blog I mentioned we had set a date for the wedding ect. Well as most already know I had a slight freak out/breakdown and have just decided to do Justice of the Peace. I want to have a big party though for all my family and friends so we can celebrate. We have changed the date to Friday Feb. 26th on Saturday Chris and I will head to the Ft. Worth Stock Yards to take some newly wed pictures with my wonderful friend Heather with Chunky Monkey Photography. Chris is so excited he loves the Stock Yards and I know this will be a super fun place for us to do some cute pictures. So for those of you who had cleared your schedule for the 27th of Feb. sorry I don't mean to disappoint but honestly I can't handle putting a wedding together and I need something low key and simple.
I know my sisters are disappointed they had such wonderful ideas but I do hope to use them for our wedding celebration. Jenny sent me some awesome invites to use so I can't wait to use those. I also know Jordan and Jenny have a signature drink they want to use so I am sure they can't wait to put that all together either. As for registering I am really getting to it. I have had a few people ask already but I am going to register at my fave place.... Target!!
I have been sick off and on for about 10 days now and finally starting to feel like I am getting back to normal. I love having Chris here to take care of me on the weekends. Unfortunately he has weekend duty next weekend so it will be a quiet weekend with just Sean and I. I am sure he will love having mommy all to himself. Or maybe he will just love having the Wii and Xbox ha ha.
The kids are doing great at school and at home. They are always busy and up to something. Hannah and Ella have a skating competition in Plano the weekend of Valentines day. Once I get that schedule I will post it on here and FB so that those interested can come watch.
Well like I said not much to report for now. Sorry so short and boring. Maybe more soon. Hope everyone is doing well and has a fantastic week. Well I am super sleepy and off to bed. Night all!
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Here comes the...................
Yes if you fill in the blank correctly that would be bride. Since around Christmas Chris and I have been discussing whether or not we should wait till after his next deployment to get married or just do it now. After talking to much debate and talking to family we decided why not do it now, that along with other news on Chris' end has help us decide this is for the best for us. To dispel any rumors also no we are not expecting that's not why we are pushing up the wedding.
After spending the last few days myself just contemplating after some recent issues also I figured that I needed to just buckle down and start making plans and get the ball rolling on this. Tonight I sat down and said that's it we want to get married in February since after that it gets busy with birthdays and my sister Jenny's wedding. I also did not want to overshadow her wedding either. So tonight I emailed my family and said give me your addresses and clear the date Chris and I are getting married Feb 27th! Since I sent that out I have been overwhelmed with responses. That's why its taking forever to do this blog tonight.
I love that my sisters have been emailing me with wonderful ideas! I love the fact they are so into this. My aunt and my cousins have also been full of ideas also! So I have a amazing photographer set, My cousin Julie will officiate the wedding, I have my aunts house for the festivities, My sisters have picked out signature drinks and have come up with a yummy menu, Chris and I have picked out and purchased our wedding bands, so now all I need to do is find a dress, pick out some flowers, get some music together, and figure out the other pieces to this and make sure its exactly how Chris and I want this.
Our plan is to take the Friday before and Monday after off for this wedding stuff. I am excited, nervous and scared thinking about all of this. Why do you ask would I be scared and nervous.... Well a month ago my divorce was final and today would have marked mine and Jason's 8 year wedding anniversary. I know that this time is so much different but still those fears linger in the back of my mind. I know how happy we will be and we will have a wonderful life together. I am excited about our new life and all that is to come. Everyone has given us such wonderful advice and I am thankful for all of it.
Now its time for me to wrap this up. I need some sleep and time to talk to my man! I hope to start blogging a bit more now that this wedding is coming up. Hope everyone had a wonderful New Years. I know we did. Good night all!
After spending the last few days myself just contemplating after some recent issues also I figured that I needed to just buckle down and start making plans and get the ball rolling on this. Tonight I sat down and said that's it we want to get married in February since after that it gets busy with birthdays and my sister Jenny's wedding. I also did not want to overshadow her wedding either. So tonight I emailed my family and said give me your addresses and clear the date Chris and I are getting married Feb 27th! Since I sent that out I have been overwhelmed with responses. That's why its taking forever to do this blog tonight.
I love that my sisters have been emailing me with wonderful ideas! I love the fact they are so into this. My aunt and my cousins have also been full of ideas also! So I have a amazing photographer set, My cousin Julie will officiate the wedding, I have my aunts house for the festivities, My sisters have picked out signature drinks and have come up with a yummy menu, Chris and I have picked out and purchased our wedding bands, so now all I need to do is find a dress, pick out some flowers, get some music together, and figure out the other pieces to this and make sure its exactly how Chris and I want this.
Our plan is to take the Friday before and Monday after off for this wedding stuff. I am excited, nervous and scared thinking about all of this. Why do you ask would I be scared and nervous.... Well a month ago my divorce was final and today would have marked mine and Jason's 8 year wedding anniversary. I know that this time is so much different but still those fears linger in the back of my mind. I know how happy we will be and we will have a wonderful life together. I am excited about our new life and all that is to come. Everyone has given us such wonderful advice and I am thankful for all of it.
Now its time for me to wrap this up. I need some sleep and time to talk to my man! I hope to start blogging a bit more now that this wedding is coming up. Hope everyone had a wonderful New Years. I know we did. Good night all!
Sunday, December 27, 2009
A Very Merry Christmas!
So a few days ago I was very Bahumbugish and not at all in the Christmas spirit. I guess that changed finally at around 1:30am when Chris arrived. Yes that's right he spent 15 hours in his car. I fell asleep on the couch and jumped out of my skin when I heard him come through the front door. That it was that crazy thief coming back for that Christmas tree ha ha! I have never been so happy to see him. I worried when it took so long I of course started having horrible thoughts run through my head. All he wanted to do was crawl into bed. He said as soon as he exited the high way he was undoing his boots and undoing his pants so that he could just strip them off and hop into the nice warm bed. That's exactly what he did!
Christmas morning we where slightly sluggish getting up but once I got the call that the girls where on their way over Chris and I kicked into high gear to make it look good for them when we arrived. Also meant time to get ready so we could head to Mimi's house for breakfast. Ella loved her new Bitty Baby and the accessories that went with it. Hannah was thrilled to get the 2 gift cards from American Girl that would allow her to purchase a new AG doll later this week. They also got small other stuff but those where the big things at my house. Still more to open up at Chris's house. We all got dressed, the truck packed and set to head over to Mimi's and then hit the Road to Abilene.
Breakfast was yummy. I think the kids where really antsy and ready to get out to Abilene. The nibbled on their food and had that look of "LET'S GET THIS SHOW ON THE ROAD!!!" We where trying to wait a bit for the roads to clear more since it was cold and um lots of snow on the ground. Yep a White Christmas here in Dallas, Texas! So we got in the truck got every situated with food, drinks and of course the electronics. We made our trek to the highway and all was great for the first hour and a half or so and we realized that highway 20 was shut down the night before and there was a sign remind us that it was still closed past Weatherford. A quick phone call to Chris's mom she confirmed that they had just opened it up but it was slow moving and advised to use extreme caution. About 30 minutes later we realized why. It was still pretty icy and full of traffic for those that had been stuck on there for hours on end. It was slightly nerve wracking but we made it through and about that time Jason and Myranda start calling to ask if we had made it yet. I told them we hit some bad roads but would be home soon. At this point the kids where ready to just jump out of their seats.
We arrived around 4pm and the kids bolted up to the apt. ready to get the gift opening going. The house looked great and the kids loved that there where presents stuck in the chimney! Once the gifts where divided up the kids ripped into their stuff. All the kids loved everything they got. Hearing them shriek and yell "look at this!" "Look what I got!" was just music to my ears. I know Chris and his mom appreciated that also. I got some great stuff also. I got new pots and pans which I really needed, a laptop that is in the works and will hopefully be here soon, some wonderful Bath and Body Works stuff and a game of Chutes and Ladders. Don't ask about the game Chris must think I am still a kid or something ha ha! We had a yummy Lasagna dinner and I spent the rest of my evening up loading pictures and setting up all the new electronic devices. I guess I should also mention that the kids each got new bikes and they where super excited about that! To bad it was to cold and icy to ride or else they would have gone out that night!
Saturday we got up hung out around the house the kids played their games, watched tv and entertained Lily. They really wanted to hurry up and get going because Chris and I where going to take them over to the base so they could see it and see what it was all about. We left the house around noon, I got my guest pass, and we where set. The kids saw these big huge planes and they where awestruck! I have pictures posted on Facebook of it. They didn't want to leave. We went and looked at almost all the planes they had on display, showed them the base houses, where Chris works, and the BX. They really liked how quiet and peaceful it is. We are planning on going out there again this week. We got home dropped the girls with Jason and then me and my boys went to eat a later dinner and head off to bed.
So I just lost the last part of this blog so anyways we are about 96 miles away from Abilene. The girls are sleeping and that's how we like it! We have some fun things planned for the week. I am just sad Sean isn't able to join us but I told him the next time we have a long weekend and we are able we would take a trip out there. He seemed ok with that. Well pictures won't upload and I am feeling the need just to wrap this up since I forgot half of what I was typing ha ha! I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday and I hope everyone has a great New Year!
Christmas morning we where slightly sluggish getting up but once I got the call that the girls where on their way over Chris and I kicked into high gear to make it look good for them when we arrived. Also meant time to get ready so we could head to Mimi's house for breakfast. Ella loved her new Bitty Baby and the accessories that went with it. Hannah was thrilled to get the 2 gift cards from American Girl that would allow her to purchase a new AG doll later this week. They also got small other stuff but those where the big things at my house. Still more to open up at Chris's house. We all got dressed, the truck packed and set to head over to Mimi's and then hit the Road to Abilene.
Breakfast was yummy. I think the kids where really antsy and ready to get out to Abilene. The nibbled on their food and had that look of "LET'S GET THIS SHOW ON THE ROAD!!!" We where trying to wait a bit for the roads to clear more since it was cold and um lots of snow on the ground. Yep a White Christmas here in Dallas, Texas! So we got in the truck got every situated with food, drinks and of course the electronics. We made our trek to the highway and all was great for the first hour and a half or so and we realized that highway 20 was shut down the night before and there was a sign remind us that it was still closed past Weatherford. A quick phone call to Chris's mom she confirmed that they had just opened it up but it was slow moving and advised to use extreme caution. About 30 minutes later we realized why. It was still pretty icy and full of traffic for those that had been stuck on there for hours on end. It was slightly nerve wracking but we made it through and about that time Jason and Myranda start calling to ask if we had made it yet. I told them we hit some bad roads but would be home soon. At this point the kids where ready to just jump out of their seats.
We arrived around 4pm and the kids bolted up to the apt. ready to get the gift opening going. The house looked great and the kids loved that there where presents stuck in the chimney! Once the gifts where divided up the kids ripped into their stuff. All the kids loved everything they got. Hearing them shriek and yell "look at this!" "Look what I got!" was just music to my ears. I know Chris and his mom appreciated that also. I got some great stuff also. I got new pots and pans which I really needed, a laptop that is in the works and will hopefully be here soon, some wonderful Bath and Body Works stuff and a game of Chutes and Ladders. Don't ask about the game Chris must think I am still a kid or something ha ha! We had a yummy Lasagna dinner and I spent the rest of my evening up loading pictures and setting up all the new electronic devices. I guess I should also mention that the kids each got new bikes and they where super excited about that! To bad it was to cold and icy to ride or else they would have gone out that night!
Saturday we got up hung out around the house the kids played their games, watched tv and entertained Lily. They really wanted to hurry up and get going because Chris and I where going to take them over to the base so they could see it and see what it was all about. We left the house around noon, I got my guest pass, and we where set. The kids saw these big huge planes and they where awestruck! I have pictures posted on Facebook of it. They didn't want to leave. We went and looked at almost all the planes they had on display, showed them the base houses, where Chris works, and the BX. They really liked how quiet and peaceful it is. We are planning on going out there again this week. We got home dropped the girls with Jason and then me and my boys went to eat a later dinner and head off to bed.
So I just lost the last part of this blog so anyways we are about 96 miles away from Abilene. The girls are sleeping and that's how we like it! We have some fun things planned for the week. I am just sad Sean isn't able to join us but I told him the next time we have a long weekend and we are able we would take a trip out there. He seemed ok with that. Well pictures won't upload and I am feeling the need just to wrap this up since I forgot half of what I was typing ha ha! I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday and I hope everyone has a great New Year!
Thursday, December 24, 2009
BAH HUMBUG!
In the last 36 hours I feel that this holiday is mocking me and my excitement. Since yesterday at lunch time all I keep getting is bad news. Chris who was suppose to leave Wednesday after work was told that he had to work on Christmas Eve. ICK! Already I could feel things that where suppose to happen where just going to be halted. I called my aunt told her the situation and she said that Doug could pick us up and not to worry. Ok fine it will work not how I expected it to be but I don't want to let the kids down. I get through the rest of the evening but I was grouchy and decided that I would just stay up as late as I want to. 2am I decided eh I am bored lets call it a night.
It was about 4am and from my living room I heard a loud jingling and then crashing sound. I thought one of two things. First that someone was breaking in or Chris was surprising me by coming here in the middle of the night. I peeked up terrified from my bed to notice the Christmas lights from the tree that I could once see where no longer visible from my bed. "Son of a.....!" I mutter as I flip on the lights and walk out to the living room. The sight I saw made my blood boil! My tree had fallen over on the chair and ottoman. Ornaments and broken pieces where everywhere! "Are you kidding me!" I guess I muttered a bit to loudly because Hannah come out wondering to the living room half a sleep asking me what was wrong and why the tree was laying on the floor. I told her to go back to bed before she got glass in her feet. She seemed upset to see me taking decorations off the tree before Christmas. I only took off the top half of the ornaments so that the tree might stay up better. I then pulled out the vacuum cleaned up the mess and stumbled back to bed. Chris calls 2 hours later. his mom 2 hours after that and then my aunt. I told everyone to let me sleep I am exhausted and to try back at noon!
Noon has rolled around. To my surprise Chris is on the road! Good news right? WRONG! He was 40 miles from the base left at 11am and traffic was awful! Ok I kept thinking maybe this will clear up he will be here on time. Oh did I mention it was SNOWING!!! For those of you who wished for snow for Christmas I so thank you! ( note sarcasm!) I make the icing for the jello salad the mixer doesn't work so I have to do it by hand. I plop on the couch with the kids and listen to some Christmas music and decide to check on Chris progress to see how far he had come. At this point its around 2pm he has to almost be here right?! He is stuck on 20 its so backed up he can't move. He is 198 miles from downtown Ft Worth! Good Lord! I call in a panic tell my aunt to send my uncle to get us now its rush mode! I had to be ready by 4! I figure surely by this point Chris would be almost here and meet us over at my aunts.
As we are leaving I check again. No dice he hasn't moved and there is a wreck! REALLY!! Good grief. What the heck happened to this being my best Christmas ever?! Mopey I head to my aunts with the kids. They are excited but worried about where Chris is. I find out the highway is shut down. No progress and finally we realize he just isn't coming. 2 over turned tractor trailers caused such a mess the highway was closed. Its still snowing and the roads are horrible. By 7pm or so I find that they have to get a police escort and may not go more than 20 miles an hour! I am really upset now and feel like I am losing my Christmas spirit complete!
Get home around 8 to about 4 inches of snow on my steps that lead me to my porch that is also totally covered in snow and hard to maneuver on! Is everything out to get me?! Will I catch a break at all?! I come in change walk down to Jason's borrow a broom to clean off the stairs and patio. Found table salt used the whole thing to make sure I have a safe walk way for when Chris gets here or the kids which ever makes it here first! I stood out on my patio for about 30 minutes staring off thinking about this year. I spent some time talking to my brother thanking him for the snow! Telling him how much I miss him. I think I finally reached a point where I was actually grieving his death and not just pretending like he just isn't talking to me or something. I felt so much better and was able to come inside and just relax.
It's 10pm now the snow has stopped. I just went outside and the sky has started to clear up and the moon is out making the snow look even more amazing. Still no word from Chris and I am afraid to call for fear of distracting him. So I am curled up on the couch with the new warm throw my sister got me for Christmas with some candles lit watching Lifetime Christmas movies. I am hoping to see some improvement in luck tomorrow. The kids are excited and that's what matters right?! I can't wait for them to get to Abilene and see their goodies. Just spoke to my aunt and we will be heading to her house in the morning to have a quick breakfast get together and to pick up Chris's shoes that I left there since I thought he would be meeting us there. Maybe things are looking up and changing now. Merry Christmas.
It was about 4am and from my living room I heard a loud jingling and then crashing sound. I thought one of two things. First that someone was breaking in or Chris was surprising me by coming here in the middle of the night. I peeked up terrified from my bed to notice the Christmas lights from the tree that I could once see where no longer visible from my bed. "Son of a.....!" I mutter as I flip on the lights and walk out to the living room. The sight I saw made my blood boil! My tree had fallen over on the chair and ottoman. Ornaments and broken pieces where everywhere! "Are you kidding me!" I guess I muttered a bit to loudly because Hannah come out wondering to the living room half a sleep asking me what was wrong and why the tree was laying on the floor. I told her to go back to bed before she got glass in her feet. She seemed upset to see me taking decorations off the tree before Christmas. I only took off the top half of the ornaments so that the tree might stay up better. I then pulled out the vacuum cleaned up the mess and stumbled back to bed. Chris calls 2 hours later. his mom 2 hours after that and then my aunt. I told everyone to let me sleep I am exhausted and to try back at noon!
Noon has rolled around. To my surprise Chris is on the road! Good news right? WRONG! He was 40 miles from the base left at 11am and traffic was awful! Ok I kept thinking maybe this will clear up he will be here on time. Oh did I mention it was SNOWING!!! For those of you who wished for snow for Christmas I so thank you! ( note sarcasm!) I make the icing for the jello salad the mixer doesn't work so I have to do it by hand. I plop on the couch with the kids and listen to some Christmas music and decide to check on Chris progress to see how far he had come. At this point its around 2pm he has to almost be here right?! He is stuck on 20 its so backed up he can't move. He is 198 miles from downtown Ft Worth! Good Lord! I call in a panic tell my aunt to send my uncle to get us now its rush mode! I had to be ready by 4! I figure surely by this point Chris would be almost here and meet us over at my aunts.
As we are leaving I check again. No dice he hasn't moved and there is a wreck! REALLY!! Good grief. What the heck happened to this being my best Christmas ever?! Mopey I head to my aunts with the kids. They are excited but worried about where Chris is. I find out the highway is shut down. No progress and finally we realize he just isn't coming. 2 over turned tractor trailers caused such a mess the highway was closed. Its still snowing and the roads are horrible. By 7pm or so I find that they have to get a police escort and may not go more than 20 miles an hour! I am really upset now and feel like I am losing my Christmas spirit complete!
Get home around 8 to about 4 inches of snow on my steps that lead me to my porch that is also totally covered in snow and hard to maneuver on! Is everything out to get me?! Will I catch a break at all?! I come in change walk down to Jason's borrow a broom to clean off the stairs and patio. Found table salt used the whole thing to make sure I have a safe walk way for when Chris gets here or the kids which ever makes it here first! I stood out on my patio for about 30 minutes staring off thinking about this year. I spent some time talking to my brother thanking him for the snow! Telling him how much I miss him. I think I finally reached a point where I was actually grieving his death and not just pretending like he just isn't talking to me or something. I felt so much better and was able to come inside and just relax.
It's 10pm now the snow has stopped. I just went outside and the sky has started to clear up and the moon is out making the snow look even more amazing. Still no word from Chris and I am afraid to call for fear of distracting him. So I am curled up on the couch with the new warm throw my sister got me for Christmas with some candles lit watching Lifetime Christmas movies. I am hoping to see some improvement in luck tomorrow. The kids are excited and that's what matters right?! I can't wait for them to get to Abilene and see their goodies. Just spoke to my aunt and we will be heading to her house in the morning to have a quick breakfast get together and to pick up Chris's shoes that I left there since I thought he would be meeting us there. Maybe things are looking up and changing now. Merry Christmas.
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